Thursday, January 05, 2006
{ 5:52 AM }
it's like the fourthday of school and everything just go on and on. like there's never been a stop, no holidays, no nothing. life is back to normal. i'm really missing those days when i stay at home and act like one pig. sigh..my class looks weird. so are the people in it (and that definitely includes me because i'm weird). some of them are..i dont know how to describe to you..but yes..weird. but i kind of like my class. besides, we're going to stay like this for..at least two years right? seriously, i dont like some part of my class. i dont like everything of it, but i dont hate. because i'm filled with love. i only dont like. hahaas. it doesn't make any sense to you does it? but it sure does, to me. lessons been fast and busy. velosity vs verbosity. we're rushing for time ain't we? sec four is like round the corner..is it? a lot of activities and homework..lessons are imbearable. and our teachers are mostly ok..besides..some. hahaas. i'm having headaches more often then ever and i look sickly. i often wonder if i'm sick inside. i can't breathe after climbing 6 flights of stairs..i'm useless. sigh..and i'm often bullied. yes. bullied. during english lessons yesterday, while we were introducing ourselves, there was this girl who's scared of insects, just like me. so ms pererira asked us.."who's scared of insects?" i raised my hands and i'm the only pathetic and useless one. and then she continued.."there's thisinsect.." and i spotted one green coloured thing flying around. i screamed and definitely regretted it right that instance. awww..i'm dumb. everyone laughed. maybe not everyone because people think i'm stupid and a scardy cat. okies..i admit. i'm one(: then while listening to lessons, bi ran sprayed water at me. so i snatched the waterbottle. si min wanted o declare war. okies..so war began. i turned over and snatched everything on the table. i refused to return..ok. and they were like showing my ez-link cards around. i dont care! besides i look horrible inside..then when i was putting bi ran pencilbox on my lap, she snatched it and for the second time, i screamed again. shacks..things just sounds so stupid doesnt it. and i was like..er..embarrassed. sigh..i'm not looking forward for more lessons, sec three life seems difficult and heavy workload is killing me..leaving me dried up and full of agonied. but i'll never be filled with hatred towards the world. i'm filled with love..even if life's been bad, i'll not despair. i'll learn to love it..although life might not nice. i can don't like, but i can't hate. hate is a word that is so strong, it can hurt sometimes. i've hated..i'm came across this part of life. dead. but i'm revived! optimistic fellow. although i'm still a bit pessimistic.